Things are a little quiet around here. That’s because I have decided that THE most important thing I do right now is write Book 2 (well, after “be a mother to my son”, oh, and, you know, “be a wife”).
Some work on Healer’s Touch is taking away from my writing of new stuff — I have to make decisions on cover design and the like. But that is coming to a close now, and I am very lucky to have my publisher to do a lot of that work for me (like the back cover copy!). Sure, I put in my two cents here and there, and then I leave most of it to them.
Yes, a big part of me wanted to self-publish so that I could have all this control over the whole process. But the reality of my life is that I am a mother who works part time and who already “fails” at many aspects of her life (doing Christmas cards, for instance, or buying presents, or doing most of the things normal people do)
The fact is, I wake up working: I run around keeping my son happy, or getting him ready to go to kindy and me ready to go to work.
On the days I work, I dash home at lunch time, collecting the boy on the way, get lunch into him and get him to bed (which requires reading 3-4 children’s books and then having a big back and forth over why I’m not coming back to his room to tuck him in AGAIN…) and then it’s calming the temper and settling into writing while he sleeps. Luckily, I do get a good few days where he sleeps 3 hours. But most days are 2 hours average. Believe me, that’s not long when you have to go from fuming over the rigmerole of getting him to sleep to being in creative writing mode… not easy.
On the days I don’t work, sometimes things are easier, and sometimes they aren’t. Just depends. There can be playing with my son, which may double as writing research time (sometimes I can read emails/blogs while he plays around me), or there is getting out to the dog park for the boy and the dog to have a proper stretch out as they can’t at home, or there is the supermarket, or, heaven forbid, socialising… yes, I even try to do that. Then the lunch/bedtime rigmerole is the same.
If my husband didn’t play in two bands that practice weekly (so that I can write while he’s drumming), and play hockey that plays weekly (so I can write while he gets exercise), I can’t imagine how slow my writing progress would be. And yet… it’s still not good enough.
I worked out that for the last 7000 words I was managing 350 words every day. Every day. 7 days a week. I guess not bad when you think I can’t always write during my allotted writing time – sometimes I just can’t, my head isn’t in the game and I read instead, or I have a newsletter to put together for the writing group I’m a part of, or I have the voting to do for that music group I’m a part of (I took last month off, though)… yeah, I guess 350 words isn’t bad. But, I have 93,000 words (est) more to write… that’s 266 (+/-) days to go… No, that’s not suitable to me.
I need to ramp things up. Especially when you consider what effect the release of HT might have on my writing, for a few days/weeks, at least.
It’s eye-opening doing these calculations.
The writing journey is different for us all, and it can change for each of us, too. When I took up writing, I was temping. Some weeks I was working and I managed to write before and after work and during lunch breaks. Other days I wasn’t working and I could write/read/research all day. And then I got pregnant, along with a 6-month temping stint (luckily only 9am-3pm!! blessed). Pregnancy is really tiring, by the way. Sure, it has its moments, but all those hormones and the extra weight and all the other bits (like your pelvis bones beginning to loosen up in preparation.. stair-climbing not so easy!)… And then there was a baby and the need for extra sleep and the total lack of over-night sleep, and all the rest… and then there was a toddler… argh!
But I’ve kept writing. And, sure, I feel bad about it when I know I should be being a mother first. But I just can’t do that. It’s never been who I am. I need a career, and this is the one for me. Now I just need to make it pay off…
Right, off to hunt out Six Sentences for tomorrow (It’s Sunday my time!)… It’s tricky. I’m loving sharing Warrior’s Touch, but I hope I’m not spoiling HT too much!